Honestly

I think I burnt myself out. Maybe I will have to put things on pause for a while. Welcome to the blog, by the way. Let’s have a bit of a moan.

Today’s blog does not come from a good place. To quote the Oscar-winning Brendan Fraser in The Whale, I need to write something honest. Honestly, I am getting into some bad habits again that are leading me nowhere, and I keep telling myself I will get my act together soon, to no avail. We are over halfway through the year, and while I have kept busy and have had a nice time with a lot of nice people, I have been dealing with a lot.

This isn’t to say things have gotten grim and dark at times, but there have been days when I suddenly realise I haven’t done anything productive or anything that will benefit me in the long run. This leads to a good bit of spiralling into negative thoughts and negative self-talk. For the longest time, I have been putting the important things on the long finger. It's my birthday in a month and a half, and things haven’t changed much for the better since last year.

All this being said, I still have hope. It's hard to find most days, but it is still there. I think I need to press pause on a couple of things and think. That’s what I am going to go do now.

Thank you for reading and thank you as ever for your time.